Why hello there, my dearest readers!
I realized I’ve fallen off the map in recent months. Life came at me in full force. I’m talking decisions, changes, and new beginnings.
I’m so excited to say that I started a new position as a designer for the very talented Michelle Tumlin in Austin! Since I have the hardest time with change, it’s been an adjustment, but also such a giant step in the right direction for my career.
I try to keep the blog a venue for positivity and inspiration, so really only close friends and family know the struggles that were going on with my previous job. What started out as small frustrations festered into resentment I was carrying around into my life outside of work. Each day I was coming home from my job extremely frustrated and exhausted, feeling directionless and somewhat used. I find this so ironic. Because in a creative field of work, getting burned out totally robs you of your gift to provide unique and interesting solutions…. and well, without those, what can you offer?
If you know me at all, you know I’ve always been a firm believer in setting your standards high and going for your dreams. I felt it came to a point that I was still preaching this to others, but then wasn’t living it myself. I had been continuing to get up and go to my job, but I wasn’t even sure why. The problem is when you put up with crap everyday, you get comfortable with it. It lowers your self-esteem and your expectations. You start to believe that you will not find better and/or don’t deserve better. And let me tell you friends, this is TOXIC. Not only to your career, but it starts to effect the rest of your life too. Deep down, you know what’s right for you. If it’s not right – it’s not right. Never just settle. In a relationship. In a job. In life. If someone does not support you, like you for who you are, or appreciate your talents, then LEAVE. It took me a long time to realize this in this situation. I realized I wasn’t being true to myself. I was shutting out my inner voice. Don’t shut out yours.
Today begins my 4th week at the new job, and I’m so pleased to say I feel like I have my life back. I have more energy, can think and formulate thoughts better (on most occasions!!), and wake up each day with things to look forward to. I can’t wait to make this blog as great as I always knew it could be! I’m going to be bringing back segments on the regular (Color Story, Design Obsession, Thursday Thoughts, etc) and also throwing a couple new ones in there as well! This isn’t just my creative outlet, it’s yours too.
I’m glad to be back. If you’re reading this right now then you haven’t given up on me yet!!! Hahaha. Thanks for being a loyal supporter of the blog! Now we have a lot to catch up on….. 😉
It is always so hard to break out of a toxic environment! Good for you for doing it! I have been in a few jobs that I honestly didn’t know why I went to. I was treated like crap, given no hope to make anything out of the job, and basically only went to work because I didn’t know what else to do. But, when I left I felt so much better. I remember thinking why did I put up with that for so long? I guess it just gets easy when we get in those situations. Its hard to find a way out.
You are so right!! It’s like I just woke up dumbfounded one day… like why do I even go to work, put in everything I can, for little pay and no respect? I did gain some good job experience, but there was was not much room for advancement. I think we become perfectionists, and want to make others happy, but then we don’t look after ourselves. Such a good feeling to be in control and stand up for yourself! 🙂 Thanks for your comment, I’m glad to know other people can relate!
Love you Nataliya! Great to hear ! From one of your biggest fans! K
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Thanks Kim! I know you always have my back!! haha 🙂
Congratulations! Living an authentic life is so important, yet so incredibly difficult. Good for you for making a change you knew you needed. Best wishes to you!
So very true! Thanks so much for your encouragement! 🙂